Tuesday, June 26, 2007
Parallel Synchronized RandomnessJune '07 has been a memorable one. It's been great.
Congratulations to my sister for getting married for the second time (Pictures in my
multiply). Seven Months In Sunny June.
The Rise of TAJ (TJ, Andrew, Jay-Ar).
Start of a new school year.
Faux True.
Daboise Basketball tour.
Family Dinners and Trips.
Doing Manila with TAJ.
It's been crazy.
I'm a lot fatter. I have no more money in my wallet. School stuff's beginning to pile up. In other words,
life's good. Life's normal. And this is exactly why I'm beginning to get worried. I'm a firm believer in balance in the universe. Call it faith, call it physics, sooner or later, things will balance out. The complicated algorithms of an existence so vast and unexplainable compute non-stop to produce the lives that we live. In other words, God's up there. And of course, He's not one to sugar-coat what we go through. Nope. We're not getting syrup, chocolate chips, or sprinkles. Not all the time anyway. Eat too much, you get diabetes. Eat too little, then you're just one sad, little person. I find it quite annoying that I'm too busy worrying that I'm slowly finishing my sweet treat - worrying that in a few licks it'll all be gone - that I'm not even enjoying it to the fullest anymore. Where is the spontaneous, Jack Sparrow of a character I esteem myself to be? Lately, I've been looking too much at my feet, carefully following my steps. I can't even look up to see what a beautiful view I've got around me.
Remedy: get over myself. Just do what you got to do and live where you are.
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All right. Say you've fallen into a pit. It's dark, you're alone and there's no one around to hear you scream. You can't see around you. You start to get afraid. But it's all right, you're still holding up pretty well. Then, you start noticing the fact that you ARE afraid. You start thinking to yourself, "Oh shit, this is scary." Because of this, you get even more afraid. You scream and panic. And because you realize you're screaming and panicking, you become even more terrified. This is called an Emotional Feedback Loop. It works both ways. You feel happy. You think about the fact that you're happy. You smile. You become happier. You notice that you've made yourself even happier, which, in turn, makes you even happier. It's all just a matter of putting yourself in a much higher perspective (or, in a negative situation's case, a lower one).
I think that using this psychological concept to one's (positive) advantage is a great way of looking at life. I've been an advocate of this for as long as I remember. The only problem with my practice of it is that I apply it to negative situations as well. Hence, when I feel pathetic and weak, I realize how much I've made myself so pathetic and weak, and become even pathetic-er and weaker. Right now, I'm trying my very best not to apply it to my forward-looking, present-ignoring self. But, writing this blog-entry, I think I might be too late. Hahahaha.
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Out of Words. Gone to the market to haggle for some cheap ones.
the adventure ended at 9:09 PM
