Tuesday, August 30, 2005
songsgo ahead. copy it up and add more.
favorite song: iris - goo goo dolls/shimmer - fuel/tattooed on my mind - d'sound
favorite song of the moment: much has been said - bamboo
rock song: again - lenny kravitz/i'll be there for you - bon jovi
slow jam: if i ain't got you - alicia keys
r&b song: got till it's gone - janet jackson/twork it out - usher
reggae song: baby, i love your way - big mountain
dance song: u make me wanna - usher
club song: got what you need - eve
indie song: kahapon - silent sanctuary
OPM song: much has been said - bamboo
boyband song: wishes - human nature/girl on tv - LFO
pop song: man in the mirror - michael jackson
barkada song: trip mo ba -freshmen
waking up song: breakstuff - limp bizkit/sunday morning - maroon5
car song: rodeo clowns - jack johnson
anger song: come with me - p.diddy
happy song: no such thing - john mayer
makes you wish you knew how to play guitar: save tonight - eagle eye cherry/why georgia - john mayer
depression song: somewhere in between - lifehouse/3 libras - a perfect circle
chillin' song: twork it out - usher
getting-ready-to-go-out song: u don't have to call - usher
seranading song: harana - parokya [classic]/ako'y sa'yo ika'y akin - iaxe
she-caught-you song: always been you - imajin
silent-reminscing-of-the-now-broken-relationship song: angel without wings - vertical horizon
across-the-miles song: miles away - slapshock/the distance - evan and jaron/two days in february - goo goo dolls
missing-her song: here without you - 3 doors down/i miss you - boyz II men
breaking-up song: name - goo goo dolls/demons - guster
slow dance: you and me - liefhouse/turn me on - norah jones
last kiss at the end of the movie before the credits: heroes - wallflowers
love making: crash into me - dave matthews/you belong to me - lifehouse/freak me - silk [hehe]
first kiss in a romantic movie: brighter than sunshine - aqualung
looking out the window while it's raining: somewhere only we know - keane/i hope tomorrow is like today - guster
looking out the window while on a moving vehicle: [wtf?] same as above
taking-a-crap song: anything slow [hahaha!]
shower song: fortunate - maxwell
moving out song: breathe - anna nalick
add more! go! i wanna add more as well but i can't think of any.
the adventure ended at 6:55 PM
Monday, August 29, 2005
when the cat is away, the mouse will playnow, i don't think i'm much of a mouse, but i definitely did "play".
this weekend, my parents and my eldest sister went away to Thailand. don't ask why, cuz i don't know either. that left my sister doyti and i alone at home. and i hafta say, i have never gone out as much in one weekend as i did on this one.
thursday, it was jana buencamino's despedida. it's kinda strange having her go cuz jana's always been a good friend whom i could just tell anything. friends like those are hard to find. but anyway, i went there a bit late already, at about 9pm since i had just come from basketball [team intense!] practice. after telling and hearing what seemed to be a thousand jokes with gabbi, anna c, tricia, and crissy, we said our final goodbyes to jay and left. got home around 1130pm. didn't really stay long at the despedida. haha. but then again, it
was a school night.
friday. things started to kick off when our first IAC game [team intense!] pushed through. it was along awaited game since we were up against the run-guns, the big kahunas, the shiznits, the best team in our division [or so everyone thinks], LAX [which stands for La Salle, Ateneo, Xerox {kidding. it's Xavier}]. not only that, most members of their team used to be our close batchmates in la salle, so indeed, there's some tension in this match. well. the results of the game. umm. i'll put it as plainly as i can. we lost. hahaha. by 35 points. the final score, 67-32. we scored less than their lead. don't get me wrong, we put up a big fight and at the end of the game, the LAX players were panting and limping and dying already. hahahaha.[yeah right] and so, we now stand at 0-1.
after the game, i went home with marc tarronas to get ready for greg's party. yup, gweggy's older. anyway, went to the party at around 845pm. not too many people yet so that allowed time to chill and just sit around. i was super duper tired already. people started arriving, drinks started flowing and people started getting crazy. and for the large part of it, i was just on the couch, sleeping or just watching people. haha. but then, after a while and a few shots of tequilla, i was up and running and playing "i have never" with people. haha. it was fun catching up with friends who didn't go to ateneo, or even friends who did but i don't hang around with much. late in the party, i went out and said, "shit dude, ang tanda na natin. don't you remember mga 2-3 years ago, ka-soiree lang natin yang sila pam eh. tamo ngayon, we're all partying and stuff." "oo nga eh." a distinct reply from someone/anyone whom i didn't really mind. it is true, we're this age and we're doing all this. what happens we're around 23? correction, what happens when we're around 20?! whoaaa. cuz i never imagined doing the things i've done back when i was in 1st year HS. i never even thought such parties, drinks, activities existed.
at around 2am, people started leaving. some of us had INTACT [introduction to ateneo culture and traditions. worst unit one ever has to take] at 730am. yeah. you could imagine. we [the people who decided to sleep over and go straight to admu in the morning] went to bed at around 430am already, due to certain people who wouldn't wanna shut up. that includes me. i clearly remember forcing a certain issue regarding a certain girl i was forcing to a certain friend of mine. yukyukyuk. anyway, you could imagine that all through out the useless seminar we attended, i was bangag, sleepy and uncooperative. i hadn't eaten breakfast yet and i only had around one and a half hours of sleep. after a heavy breakfast/lunch at jollibee with blockmates, i went home and slept away the afternoon.
saturday night. the night before, james had invited me to go out saturday night. he'd take me to a restaurant where they legally served drugs. then we'd go to a some bar in makati ave where they had kickin' indie band music. then we'd cap it off with embassy. the restaurant was at makati ave. jerusalem restaurant. and the drug wasn't actually an illegal drug but was called Shisha. it did have a pot-like-bong and when you take it , it really did look like you were doing drugs. [i'd post pictures but i might suddenly be kicked out of ateneo and my home] it was actually a herbal, sans-nicotine, natural high inducing thing. [yeah. everything that weed is.] but i was assured that it, indeed, was safe. no side effects. apple flavored too. at around 1130 or 12, after an unfortunate traffic hold-up [damn horny fags. they blocked our parking while they checked-in a nearby ho/motel], we went to embassy already since we couldn't find that indie band place around. james works for tim yap. tim yap partly owns embassy. what's that mean? free entrance! even into the VIP section [no not THAT kind of VIP section. it's a VIP section where VIP doesn't stand for Very Intense Porn]. anyway, the whole night was pretty good. certain things didn't push through though, as james promised. hahahaha. but still, it was fun just hanging out there. pointing out people we knew [umm, from tv that is]. anywaaaaaaay, let's skip all of that. hahaha. after embassy club, we had early breakfast at embassy cafe and went home at around 430am. amazing, this beats the latest time i've ever gone home. by far.
sunday. mass with doyti and lolo at 1230pm. after which, doyti and i went to metrowalk to stock up on dvd's and watch em all at home. and that's exaclty how i spent my sunday. amazing. cuz today, monday, there ain't classes.
haaay. this kind of weekend, i believe, will never happen again. but i'm glad that it did. i never thought i'd be up for it all until it actually happened already. don't get me wrong, i did come to realize and learn a lot of things. a LOT of things. and i'm glad. it's just not a party animal's dream but a traveler's different destinations.
the adventure ended at 12:20 PM
Monday, August 22, 2005
death by livingworst weeks of college so far. i feel like disappearing. once again, life's plunged down to another all-time low. school. personal problems. school. things about myself. issues. blahdiblahblah. to cap it all off, i lost my carkey at school a while ago. had to wait an hour and a half, alone, cold, hungry/thirsty [my wallet was in the car] and tired for the driver to come and give me the spare key. got home around 83opm na. was supposed to study as soon as i got home, but all my study materials were in the car when i got stuck. hence, i got delayed. long test in chem tomorrow. i feel too mediocre for it. my grades aren't all that hot. but oh well. long way to go. and besides, ARPT basketball team Tira2Bang2 is 2-0. we undefeated. i guess that was my only gratification for the whole day. and for the past two weeks, it's only been the brief fun weekend gimiks. and kahit pa nga dun eh, nahahassle pa rin ako. fudge. i just wanna disappear for now. take a break.
the adventure ended at 9:54 PM
Saturday, August 13, 2005
i'll be changing the blog skin next week. it's getting really old. just waiting for enough time.
alcohol and ice creami officially have a new favorite dessert spot,
cold rock in The Fort. the ice cream there's amazing and i'd like to recommend it everyone looking for a good, new dessert place [and cute order-takers. hehehe.]
the weird thing is, i had drunk quite a lot before dessert [with my family] so now my stomach's rumbling. rooaar. hehehehe.
anyway. ummmmmmmmmm.........
stressmidterms in math and long test in chem and quizzes galore next week. shoot. oh well. you know, not to be a prick or anything, it's just that doing well in highschool doesn't mean anything when you get to college. it's an entirely new playing field. and for the first time, i'm worried about passing. i've always been so sheltered in my old school, nice teachers giving you extra credit etc. but not here. i gotta do everything myself. and it's not that i'm complaining or anything, it's just that it'll take a little while to get used to it.
thank God i have an amazing block to hang out with and who are always there for support, for amusement, and for the general companionship. haaay.
IACthey cancelled our first barkada league game. Team Intense has yet to see action. but my other team, in the org league, Team Tira2Bang2 already has a win in its belt. hehehe. kahit bangko ako and practically have no use in the Tira2Bang2 team, it's alright, at least we won. basketball's fun.
Touch Of Gracethe other day, i was driving home. i was at the stoplight at the ortigas ave., edsa intersection. it was raining considerably hard. after some time, i eyed this little girl selling sampaguita garlands to each car. in the pouring rain. some people would buy, but most people wouldn't. it reached my heart that this little girl was still selling sampaguitas in the rain. so i reached in my pocket for a few coins that i had, opened my window when she got to the car and gave the coins to her. i closed the window and resumed listening to music as i waited for the red light to turn green so i could proceed home. a few minutes and a few notches increase of road rage later, i was still at the same spot. suddenly, there was a knock on my window. it was the same little girl. at first i wondered if she thought i could give her something more. but to my surprise, when i opened the window, this little girl, cold and wet and probably starving and worrying about where to sleep that night, gave me a garland of sampaguitas, smiled and walked away. it's weird. i think it's the first time i actually said "thank you" to a beggar whom i had just given alms to. it was a graceful moment. it made me wish i could have done something more.
gonna make a change for once in my lifegonna feel real good, gonna make a differencegonna make it right
the adventure ended at 9:47 PM
Monday, August 08, 2005
blog entries don't appear as often as they used to. simply because i can't seem to think of much to write about. writer's block. a major one.
alfie had a bad ending and so will ii always thought that i was an okay guy. you know, the kind of guy that had more than enough to offer. but i guess i've only realized now that i'm just
another guy. you know it's true that in some aspects, guys can actually be generalized, no matter how much you want to think otherwise and disagree with me, it's the truth.
ganun talaga mga lalaki eh. and i'm one of them. a regular
alfie [jude law movie]
. inconsistent and too much of himself for his own good. i'm full of it. i'm a jerk and i'll probably continue to be one, but what i'm trying to do is at least have the strength to control myself.
steady lang. i can't be everything for everybody.
maybe it'd be better for me not to get involved in anything. maybe i shouldn't put myself in the position to hurt anyone, or let myself get hurt. for now anyway.
the things i do, as they say, should define who i am. what
am i doing? how do i know if i'm doing the right thing? yeah, it's a gamble, i know. there are calculated risks, blahdiblahdiblah, i've heard it all before. but i just wanna know, you know? man has always been afraid of the things he couldn't understand. and i
am a man. and even worse, i'm a guy.
it's good that i have my studies and extra-curriculars to keep myself busy, or else i think i'd go insane already. i've never studied as much as i have right now, and the weird thing is, i'm not complaining [except for chem!]. haha.
yosi muna. sabay aral . DOTA pagkatapos. matulog sa huli. paggising, aral muli.
team intensethank God for basketball. the IAC League has just started and our games start this week. time to intensify. i can't wait. i'm gonna play as intense as possible. one of the few outlets i have for all the things i'm thinking of. basketball na 'to.
the adventure ended at 9:34 PM
Monday, August 01, 2005
the family guywhat is the point of each human life? somehow, through all the differences, we have one common goal. they say that it's the closest thing we have to a definite purpose. happiness.
i've just finished a family meeting. see, it's a custom in our family to, every once in a while [say two years], go over each member's plans for the next five, ten, fifteen years, and sometimes, even for the rest of his/her life. sure, these plans are never absolute and will not be served as a basis for expectation, but i guess it's good just to know what each of us want in life. the last time we did this was 2 years ago, in switzerland [and what a place to be doing it].
i clearly remember my answers from the past family meeting and as i compare it with my answers this time, i can see that i haven't really changed all that much. but one thing i could clearly notice was how different each of us is. i mean, us siblings. we all want different things. from taking part in a joint-effort with the private sector to pay off the entirety of Philippine debt, to fixing manila zoo, to settling down outside the country, to joining a non-profit organization whose purpose is to serve the suffering people/nature/ideals of the world. "to each his own" i guess. i always keep blabbering on how life should be lived and how people don't really get it. but i guess i've been wrong all this time. i have no right to judge how people should live their lives. every one's got his/her own style, his/her own flavor, his/her own road to follow. all i've come to realize now is that what everyone really wants is happiness. that's all each of us want and need. once we have that, life's in the bag. we've served our purpose. i guess that's one common definition we have for life. life is the pursuit of happiness.
we abastillas children have been raised by our parents to be very strong, very enterprising, and determined people. so i guess it's common with us kids that there's nearly nothing good enough for us and the pursuit for something more is always present. [we're all a bit too idealistic and our dreams are kinda OUT there] but then, that pursuit comes out differently from each of us. and i firmly believe that with the love, training and oh-so-persistent pushing of our dear parents, each of us will definitely attain what we want.
my mom and dad keep pushing this quote to us: "the secret to a happy life is having someone to love, something to work on, and something to hope for." so i guess, in this sense, we're already a happy bunch. but then, there's still so much work to do and so much more to hope for, which only means that there's so much more happiness in store for us.
i'm going to remember this day. i'm going to remember what each of us said. and when the day comes that doyti and ate abby have turned our family business into a multi-national conglomerate, when doyti and her business magnate associates have paid off philippine debt, when ate pam owns an online marketing agency and moreover, her own magazine, and when i have finally written my book; i will look back on today and say to myself that i never had a doubt in my mind.
P.S.
my ate pam's leaving tomorrow. so after a few months of togetherness, we're suddenly lacking again. and this time, it's gonna be a longer while.... gonna miss you a lot ate. love you.
the adventure ended at 11:30 PM
