Saturday, October 21, 2006
two weekspeople don't realize the value of moments. how single, solitary moments change and mold the lives we live. how certain decisions, though small, can ultimately alter the fabric of our existence. i have made a lot of stupid decisions the past few days/weeks. some i'm not proud of, but none that i regret. they've all created a certain razzle-dazzle, shim-sham, hodge-podge chopsuey in my life. it's quick sand. when you realize that you're in a pickle, it's too late to struggle back out. all you need to do is stay still, and hope that things work out.
i'm going to the states for two weeks with my dad. besides visiting my friends and hanging out with my dad, consider this part 2 of my out-of-country soul search expedition. the last time was a mere 4 nights, now, it's 13. and at least 8000 miles farther. part of me really wants to go on this trip to escape the drudgery of life here and re-think/re-assess everything. i'm coming of age and it's time to really think about anything and everything. school, career, future, etc. but then, a part of me doesn't want to go at all. a part of me wants to sink in that quick sand and see what's on the other side. i wanna live through whatever happens here in the short span of immortality that sembreak gives. two different two-weeks but i can only live in one of them. ja-sigh.
some people say that two weeks is too short. but the world has changed in a shorter period of time. this is a big one, i can tell. just like the big feeling i got during the final days of 2005. i kept thinking, "is it just me, or is 2006 gonna be a rather big and eventful year?" true enough, it has been. far too much than i have ever imagined. TOO many things happened. so yeah. i can't blame myself for being rather worried about this one. i just hope things turn out okay.
oh well, at least i'm off to see the Knicks play! hahahaha. woohoo!
the adventure ended at 4:37 PM
