Wednesday, August 02, 2006
obviously, i got lazy to continue the "sticks and stones" entry from last week. but i will do, sooner or later.
einstein dropped out of school too, you knowwell, i didn't make it into Heights. i find myself wondering if this is a good thing or not. i don't know. i really thought i could do it. i thought i had it in me. but then again, maybe i'm shooting too much. oh well. i've got a whole year to grow and try again.
jekyll and hydesomething's happening to me..
yes. the very thing i'm trying to flush out of my system by trying to use it all up is taking control of me. consuming me. it's given me a dark side. nah, too exaggerated. a jerk side. yeah, much better. lately, i've been an inconsiderate, tactless, insensitive jerk. and the weird thing is.... i like it. i'm becoming the supervillain i'm trying desperately to defeat and i don't seem to mind. i don't know, there are still some traces of myself in there, but they're all slowly dwindling and dying out. is this a good thing? i really don't know. i kinda wanna see just how far this goes, downward spiral thereafter withstanding. hehe.
an effect of said transformation is the rapid entrance towards "cool"-dom. ahhh. being "cool." the one thing in my social stature dominated youth we all promised never to be. the havs-wearing, bora-going, ever after-listening, frisbee-playing lot who are considered the elite among the elite. i swear i had made more fun of them than comics do of politics and hollywood/showbiz combined. it's unfortunate. lately, with the things i do, the places i go, the words i say, the people i hang out with, the frickin' clothes i wear, i can honestly say that the thin line between being 'cool' and being "cool" is being crossed. the difference between 'cool' and "cool?" read up on my YM conversation with dre
here [just goes to show how utterly weird and bobohan/labuan my conversations with dre get]. this all sucks. i just wish things were the way they were before. or do i? how much better/worse would things be anyway? sigh. i dunno. i dunno. labuan.
the adventure ended at 12:44 AM
