Tuesday, July 25, 2006
sticks and stonesthe grim weather causes the sandman to sprinkle just a little more sand on my eyes. i've been asleep for 12 hours. wonderful. anyway, as i was taking my breakfast/lunch [i DO NOT want to call it brunch], i started grinning. which eventually made me start laughing. looking like a lunatic to all those around me, i regained my composure and started to think about what made me laugh more vividly. it was the image of my good friend Bree Jalijali standing on a chair in our classroom, flapping his AJSS jacket as if it was his wings, portraying a "noble" face. why would this action happen at all? he was imitating the Geryon monster, one of the guardians of one of the levels of hell in Dante's Inferno. then i started thinking, "what the hell were we thinking?" then i suddenly called to mind [with the help of mon] all the stupid, seemingly irrelevant things our ever-evolving class has said and done through the course of our lives. words that only we would understand and would find extremely hilarious. i swear, we need our own dictionary and grammar guide. so, this entry might only be enjoyed by LSGH boys. haha.
around 1998-2000:"boboshark" - one of the oldest relics in the form of language that can be found in our broad tradition. it intitially started during greg's swimming party when we were playing water tag wherein the "it" is thought of as a shark. i distinctly remember that greg's brother, leo, was seen trying to "eat himself" when he became "it". hence, we called him the boboshark. [i remember that day clearly because it was the same day i gave mon a jericho chin by pushing him from beside the pool, hurling him to hit the side railing.] and so, from then on, boboshark was used to refer to someone stupid or dumb or someone you just plain wanna insult.
Tabrella and TUSK - if the mafia took the form of gradeschoolers, Tabrella would be the Corleone's and TUSK would be the Tattaglia's. Tabrella was us, [back then] the geeks and nerds who weren't really cool. come on, "Tabrella" in itself meant Table-Umbrella since the place where we hung out had tables with umbrellas on 'em [it was even the Tabrella Clang, clang being a mixture of club and gang]. TUSK, on the other hand was the cool, brash, reckless group, aptly named with the last names of its founders: Torres, Umali, Silva, Karl. haha. just to make it sound "better" they made Karl Santos' letter K instead of S. ahhh, i remember the royal rumble wars we used to wage and the "batuhan ng kamias" melees. we even had a day. the Tabrella day. even TUSK members would join us as we played a big-scale game of hide-and-seek where the entire schoolgrounds was the playing field.
Ryan Ferrera - he was my classmate during gradeschool. and i, being the jerk that i am, would tease him. i conjured this kind of a rhyme/song that i'd sing whenever i'd wanna insult him. it sort of caught on. sort of. it went like this: [yes, it had a melody] "si ferrera, basurera, namula kanyang mata sa crispy pata, something something [it had about two more lines.]" why would anybody's eyes turn red from crispy pata?! i think i sucked a lot back then.
"Mama" - this one came around 8 years ago and never EVER left. we had a "family" in our class. there was a "papa" [camillo. who, in turn, is now forever known as Pops], a "mama", mikee and even children and other relatives. for some odd reason, Mama stuck the hardest and until now, we, as his friends, are very very unused to calling him Mikee in school.
"Super Death!" - joel. the contingent of daboise that had to go away. tsk. back then, whenever we'd be in a line, going to an assembly or anywhere else, whenever we'd pass a flight of stairs or any other inclined spot of ground, he'd abruptly push you, hoping you'd fall to your doom. while this is being done, you'd hear him shriek, "SUPER DEATH!" of course, this led to certain variations, the "Chain Death". the "Look-Ma-No-Hands Death" and my personaly favorite, the "Supuer Death" [pronounced "soop-wer"]. he was trying to write a big Super Death on the blackboard. ewan. just to be weird. for some odd reason, he spelled it "Supuer." he'd get so mad whenever we'd tease him with it.
around 2001-2003:
"Gaynerd" - probably the most infamous term in highschool. it refers to those geeky, nerdy, teacher-ass-kissing, presentation-intensifying people who were always on top. yes, by this time, the "Gago group" had been established and a new rivalry had emerged, circa Tabrella/TUSK. and most of us former Tabrella members had matured and had joined the opposition. haha. and so, this Gago Group or Bree Group [Growing Adolescents Going through Obstacles and/or Boys Really Enjoying Enjoyment] pioneered this Gaynerd term. it wouldn't be complete if you didn't say it in this certain way that sort of resembles a foghorn, but a lot more annoying. "NNNGGGGGEEEEEYYYYNNEEEEERRD!!!" this, of course, was to be said after each highly insightful piece of recitation or after every nicely made presentation. the Gaynerds, of course, didn't take this lightly and struck back on the offensive. long story for that one. it was all in the spirit of class unity anyway. hahahaha.
"Where Bear?" - yes. bree was on a roll. he thought up "Where Bear?" basically, it just means "where?" except you had the, uhhh, "bear" to go along just to make it rhyme. or something like that. hehe. this was used often when asking questions regarding wherebearabouts.
"Verto!" - we had a classmate named Norbert. he was very popular. in a sort of "kuwela" sense. at one time, chino and mon heard him being called Verto. and of course, chino and mon, being the resident "pauso" of all time [only rivaled by bree], capitalized. soon, it reached monstrous proportions that it included actions already. whenever you said "Verto!" you had to sort of cross your arms on your chest and make two peace signs that looked like v's. sometimes you even had to kneel down on one foot for emphasis. i have no idea why this went about.
Mike Caseres runs for student council - during 2nd year, our classmate mike ran for Batch Rep. he was campaigning at the time, going door to door, asking for votes. so, he needed a few flyers to take with him. he asked some of our classmates to do it. big mistake. it said" VOTE MIKE" in small font on top then a big "Caseres" in the middle in the girliest script font you can imagine. not just that, it had designs of flowers on the side. goodness. and whenever you'd read the poster, it had to be in this way: you say "VOTE MIKE..." in the deepest voice you can [since mike had a deep voice] than continue with "Caseres!" with gay-est voice you possibly can. no wonder he lost that year.
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gosh. these are all too long. whew. i'll continue on with part 2 soon. it'll be from 2003 to present. hehe. there lie the good stuff.
the adventure ended at 12:35 PM
Friday, July 21, 2006
hermitstars looked at up close, through science, can never be as amazing as those seen by the naked eye: dots of wonder and beauty. it's so much more magical to think of these sparkly, bright little spheres that way rather than hot balls of inert and un-inert [?] gases. the thing is, there are just some things in this life one can only appreciate from a distance.
**
my sisters are on dates, my parents are out of town, and my friends are all busy. normally, i'd jump at the chance to go and do something crazy. but that's not the case tonight. i'm burned out. and so, i'm alone tonight. and i haven't been in so long. it's a weird feeling. something i haven't felt in a long time. and so, it feels new. it's like all my thoughts and feelings finally have the time, the silence, and the space to catch up with me. it's rather wonderful... in a lonely kind of sense. i'm not saying i'm all sad and emo right now, i'm just saying, things are clearer when there are no other people blocking your view, no other voices drowning your own, and no other thoughts clouding your own perception. i haven't heard myself think in quite a while. i've been so brash and reckless to just to be able to change that i've lost track of my progress as of late. this night is good for me. haven't devoted a night to myself in a while. no accounting girlfriends. no jamoves. no "steady hits." no words at all.
anyway,
there will always be decisions to be made. paths to be taken. opportunities to be passed up. some roads we are afraid to take so we desperately try to search for another route. a short-cut. and through our blind search, we suddenly realize that we've wasted more time searching than we would have if we had chosen the original path in the first place. and in some cases, we think of how much more convenient it would've been if we had turned right instead of gone straight. the thing is, we'll never know. so between the guy behind us honking profusely, and the bladder inside us, filling up slowly, what's really important is to keep our eyes on the road before us and listen to good music on the way.
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i had my heights interview a while ago. i think i did well. i'm hoping to get in. cuz one thing i thought of while i walked out of that interview is that I WILL NEVER STOP WRITING. even if it kills me. no other activity gives me as much solace and peace as i write my seemingly senseless ramblings about this God-given life. and so, to all those who i'm sharing this with, i thank you. for having it in you to be interested in what i have to think and say. i'm a complex person, but i think if you read my blog often, you'll prolly know me more than i do myself. hehe.
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the adventure ended at 8:48 PM
Thursday, July 13, 2006
davey jonesit's actually funny how we think we know what we're doing. it's actually amusing how much we confuse ourselves with so many things when we know that the answers are so clear. it's not really help we need. we already know what we're supposed to do. we just need someone to force us into doing it because we're too afraid.
i can't promise anything... but i am trying. the thing is, i'm as stupid as the rest of us.
"and peter told wendy, 'i'm not worth staying in neverland for.' 'why not?' asked wendy. 'well, i don't know what love is.'... and with that, peter flew away, and the rain began to pour. but all the water from the sky can never compare to the storm of tears coming from wendy darling."
the adventure ended at 11:09 PM
Tuesday, July 11, 2006
my girlfriend's making me a martyrwhat must it be like for, say, Superman when he flies towards the lair of Lex Luthor, knowing that he might not be there anymore for another movie sequel? hell, let's not go too far. what must it be like for a soldier marching to war, aware of his probable death? what thoughts go through the heads of those who are in the moments before life-changing/ending ordeals?
i think i know. thursday is D-day. a time of reckoning. a long test in Accounting. [haha. akala niyo no'?!] my girlfriend's wrath will be felt on that day. how i deal with her will be the ultimate gauge for my scholastic excellence [screw excellence. try survival.]. today i believe i spent 8 hours balancing accounts and solving short problems. and i feel it still isn't enough. i'm nowhere near ready for thursday. and yet, despite imminent hell, i find myself in front of the interactive boob tube playing a game of rant and rave.
there are A LOT of distractions and let-downs all around me right now. there's no sense being emo about all of them. people notice it in my face though. there's a tinge of sadness at the tip of my cheek. the ironic thing is, the one thing that's helped me NOT become emo and has served as my outlet, is Accounting. yes, my girlfriend loves me enough to get me through these tough personal debacles, and i love her equally for it. haha.
it's tough when your parents both have good math skills and you're given the odd, recessive gene of... artsy-fartsy-ness. believe me, this time, i'm trying my very best to do my very best. but like that old song goes, "i did my best, but i guess my best wasn't good enough..." haha. sometimes, it's either '
you got it or you don't'. anything math related is really NOT my cup of tea. i think i'd do better in any other subject. sigh. i'd seriously rather do a long paper rather than go through another balance sheet. but then, as far as cliches go, '
you gotta do what you gotta do'. haha.
so here i go. off to do another long problem. please let this week be over. i'm looking forward to
so many good things this weekend. please please please.
the adventure ended at 6:33 PM
Wednesday, July 05, 2006
conservation of conversationstudying [well, spacing out during..] Communication Theory has inspired me and has opened up my so-called social imagination [wait, didn't i get that from Sociology?]. haha. hence, i went about observing what Ateneans talk about during their free time. in the long walks in between classes and during breaks, we students, as humans often do, converse and relate with each other to feed our social appetite and keep ourselves from boredom.
Top 7 Typical Atenean Conversations:7) "Shet, di pa ko kumakain!" -- hunger is a big issue in our school. all those boring lectures and arduous school work equal one grumpy tummy. it's no wonder that on any given time during the day, one will find him/herself groggily looking for a spot in the cafeteria since it's always friggin' full. that is unless you're "cool" enough to have a specific table assigned to you and your posse permanently. the spot wouldn't be the problem, it would be what to eat: something that complies to the norms of cool-dom, and isn't extra squeeze on your love handles.
6) "Uy! Pahiram naman ng Season [insert number] ng [insert name of series]!" -- you're at home. you're in the middle of the delicate process of procrastination. you've got a handful of popcorn and a brainful of... anything but schoolstuff, what do you do? stock up on dvd's! yeah, TV's numero uno on the list of popular procrastination activities. and of course, with the sudden influx of so many "compelling" TV shows, one needs have his or her bell rung when names like Chad Michael Murray or Mischa Barton are mentioned in order to keep up with conversation.
5) "Putang Ina mehn! Talo Brazil!" -- yes, there's a disease hitting Ateneo. it'll make you more delirious than any case of flu known to man. it's aptly named World Cup Fever. everyone seems to have gotten on the bandwagon. suddenly, like a flash of lightning, people know terms like Offside, Penalty Kicks, and Ronaldinho. whether it's Kaka making the ladies swoon, or Henry upsetting the universal favorites, "World Cup" will surely be a mainstay in Atenean lingo................... for the next two weeks. haha.
4) "JAMOVES!" -- no, people don't go around shouting "JAMOVES!" [unless you're part of daboise or jagurls] it's more an act that uses words and body language as media. from HHWW [holding-hands-while-walking], to IHNTSTYBILYBITSTDAAI [i-have-nothing-to-say-to-you-because-i-like-you-but-i'm-too-shy/stupid-to-do-anything-about-it], jamoves is a part of Ateneo culture. come on, raging teenage hormones + co-ed environment = poor excuses to flirt.
3) "Pucha! Grabe! Tangina! Ang hot ni [insert name of someone hot]!" -- number three on the list puts new meaning to the saying, "those who can't do, t-- TALK." yeah, unfortunately, A LOT of us Atenean blokes [like myself], don't really have too many opportunities for jamoves in school unless we REALLY REALLY want to be pathetic and obvious about it. and so, we just verbally share our frustrations and longings regarding our seemingly insatiable INAL-ness [Inal. "e-nal" v. to long for luvin', literally means I Need A Lover. used in sentences like, "shet! naiinal na ako!"] and usually, one can't talk about anyone else privately without anybody else listening. so aliases are made. yes, guys do it too. from Hubad to DB9 to Cute Short Hair to Unreasonably White to David Hasslehoff to Labor Day to whatever! hahaha.
2) "iPod" -- why socialize in the first place? talking is over-rated! you can always drown yourself in your own world of music and feeling. just be careful, you're not on American Idol. take it easy on the emo eyes, hand gestures, and public singing.
1) "ANG INIT!" -- wet underarms. sweaty faces. weary walking. curses at the sun and Philippine weather. these are the most familiar scenes on a typical school day. the saying "Beat the Heat" is an impossible feat [unless in NBA context. {sorry joel, i just HAD to say that.}]. i never go to school without a small towel in my bag, and this has resulted to me being called a
tsuper [since i put the towel on my shoulder for easy access {plus the fact that i'm always ALWAYS the driver in any group that needs transportation}] quite a few times. haha. anyway, you've never experienced heat unless you've felt it on a hot Atenean school day.
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yeah, that's about it. i was gonna add a whole other topic too, my internal debate whether i should join Kythe or Heights as my 3rd org this year, but i figured it'd be too long already. soooo, next time. hehe.
the adventure ended at 4:50 PM
Sunday, July 02, 2006
hello hellolife is gorgeous, broken glass. through the pain, each step and drop of blood is a testament to the strength of man. man that has fought gods and saved worlds for love. to tread the goliath waves of the sea of love is a choice only fools make. fools who die ripe like daisies, blooming and marvelous. children of hell might escape time and all possibility just for the heart and face of an angel. - anon.
indirect dedications?
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i've got a girlfriend. she's quite demanding. i have to be there for her 24/7. no matter how much i try to please her, she always seems to want more from me. she's there with me in the oddest ways, usually, at times of great distress and trials. i'm losing myself in her, becoming a slave. sigh. it's tough love.
her name's Accounting 15, and i'm trying my very best to love her. it's a committment.
**
grrr. i feel a writer's block coming on. one cure for that: surveys! hahaha.
01. What was the last popup you had on your computer for? for yahoo messenger.
02. What is the worst you have ever been physically hurt? i broke a finger. ooh, and i got my ass kicked back in gradeschool.
03. Emotionally? had to hurt the person i felt deeply for.
04. If you could be famous for something, what would it be for? for writing. or for saving the world. or for being "cool."
05. What was the last movie you watched? tokyo drift.
06. Have you tried anything new today? hmm, i watched like 10 episodes of Wonder Years in one sitting.
07. Who did you share your last real conversation with? joei.
08. What and when was the last party you've been to? charmie's debut, i guess.
09. Are you at all tired? i'm always lethargic. it's a perpetual feeling.
10. When was the last time you brushed your hair? i'm guessing two and a half years ago.
11. Do you watch any tv shows religiously? Lost!
12. What is the coolest thing about your bedroom? i have the softest bed ever. everyone falls asleep instantly in my room. i think there's some chloroform in the air, circulating.
13. What is one thing you are constantly told? "don't worry. it'll come."
14. Is there anything you hate to think about? career plans.
15. Do you own a lot of shoes? yyes. i guess.
16. Have you done anything illegal this week? hehehehe. yup.
17. Do you have sleepovers on school nights? How about last night? i guess it can be considered a sleepover since people started sleeping and ended up leaving at around 4am.
18. Are good grades a priority for you? until a few weeks ago, they weren't really a big priority.
19. Would you consider yourself a "nice" person? yes. i'm "nice."
20. What was the best dream you've ever had? a reoccurring dream where i went out with some celebrity. i think it was claire forlani.
21. Do you watch your weight? i am what i eat.
22. What are 3 items that can always be found on your person? the string around my neck. wallet. underwear.
23. Are you looking forward to tomorrow? yes! [sarcasm] i get to watch lake house again [/sarcasm]!
24. What was the last tv show you've seen? The Wonder Years. love it.
25. Do you like this survey? it's alright.
26. Have you ever caught a firefly? yup. they're pretty easy to catch.
27. Describe your current state of mind in 2 words: melted, umm, mush.
28. What was the last cute thing you saw? i dunno. kevin arnold trying to get winnie cooper jealous. [watch wonder years!]
29. What is something you consider overrated? dwyane wade.
30. When was the last time you crashed on a couch? last night. whew. that was intense.
31. Do you currently have a job? working on it. seriously, i am.
32. What makes a bed comfortable to you? i dunno, lots of pillows and a helluva soft matress.
33. Do certain movies make you cry? not really. maybe finding neverland and crash.
34. Certain songs? it depends on the mood, i guess.
35. Would you consider your life mundane? most times, it most certainly is.
the adventure ended at 10:12 PM
