Wednesday, February 15, 2006
not enough vitamins, kulang sa kulayi feel lousy. it's show time tomorrow. i feel weary and unprepared. each day, i run on my seemingly unlimited amount of adrenaline. but sooner or later, it's going to have to run out. i need a break. and yet, despite it all, i still believe that it's hella fun and extremely fulfilling doing what we've been doing. exhausted as i am, i'm still much more excited than i am worried for the shows to come.
theater's helped define me as a person. it's molded me a lot. it's been part of my life since 2001. now, this will be my 7th major production and yet i've never really gotten the hang of it all. as far as i'm concerned, i still feel like a rookie. there's a dark cloud looming overhead though. i feel as though this will be my last time [at least for a very long time] to grace the presence of the divine stage. somewhere along the road, i'm going to have to draw the line between hobby and passion, and decide on which side i should stand on. no straddling allowed.
post-valentine thoughtswhen Plato was still young and was dealing with courtship for the very first time, he asked his mentor how he would know if he was in love. he already knew it existed, and he already knew that it was all around him, but he didn't know how to determine if he, himself, was in love and if he would pick the right person for him. assertive and determined to teach his student, his mentor told him to go to the wheat field and pick one leaf that he believes is the most extraordinary one. Plato did as he was told. he returned a few moments later with nothing in his hands. his mentor asked him why this was so. to this, Plato replied, "while i was on my journey, i saw a leaf that seemed to be extraordinary but i didn't pick it up because i thought i might find one even more extraordinary ahead. i found another one and thought the same thing so i laid it down and looked some more. this happened over and over. confused as i was, i decided to give up and come back here." his mentor then told him, "the same thing will happen with love. you must learn the value of acceptance, devotion, trust, and most of all, certainty."
Plato's mentor had something there, don't you think?
the adventure ended at 10:49 PM
