Saturday, January 21, 2006
when hell freezes over... then meltslife's such a twisted irony that on the instances when you need to work and need to focus the most is the same time you find a million ways to procrastinate and be less productive than usual. it's my midterm exam for Calculus on monday and i haven't started studying. my highschool self would go and tell me that "ssss. it's alright. go to sleep. eat. update your blog. arrange the letters and old books scattered in your closet. clean the car. read old magazines. browse through funny yet useless online flash movies. but DON'T study." yes, my highschool self's got the best of me. i'd like to get a knife sometime and give him a good stabbing but he's just
too cool to ignore/hate. hehe.
since i started college, i swear i've never studied as much in my entire life. it's hard to study intensely when you've been conditioned for so many years to hardly study at all or to cram like mad twenty minutes [literally] before exams. adjustment has not yet reached it's peak as i'm finding it hard to cope with all the obstacles presented before me.
my advisory grade in Calculus is
D.
i really need to work on it. math truly
is the bane of my existence.
music makes the people do you ever feel that history repeats itself more often than you want it to? that life is just a sappy rock song on repeat? there's an entire CD out there that you want to listen to but you're hooked on this one song that has seemingly entranced you and has magically made the "Next Track" button stuck.
you want to change it but you just can't. you want to let other people listen to with you but when they do, they get pissed that
you won't change the song and leave. you end up alone. emo. without a smile on your face but with a rotting song in your heart. i have to change.
hehe. metaphors make expression easier.
i'm crazy for being crazy for...
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