Tuesday, October 11, 2005
while driving to ateneo or while driving home (part 2)the things i see just keep piling up and it makes me sad and happy and inspired and most important of all, grounded. if it weren't for the things i see and the REAL people i talk to, i'd probably be insane by now.
i need a release.
**i saw a little boy walking down the street. he had a pack of "Breadstix" in one hand and a bottle of coke in the other. he didn't look all that poor nor dirty. i saw that he was walking towards an old, homeless man who seemed to be high at the time. he offered the old man some Breadstix. i wasn't able to see if the old man accepted.
**i saw another small boy sitting down in front of a sewage hole on a sidewalk. technically, he was still sitting on the road. he was peeing in the sewage. well, at least he had the smallest ounce of hygiene.
**i saw the "Angel of J" taxi again. it's the 4th time i've seen it. still a coincidence? maybe it's a franchise of taxis like the EMP taxis or Avis. but still.... and as the previous three times have dictated, something extreme will soon happen to me whether good or bad. damn that stupid harbinger of feelings.
hmmm. i know i've seen more things recently but i can't seem to remember.
anyway, this week, i dunno why [maybe it has to do with the fact that it's finals week], but i've been to church everyday on the way home from school. wala lang. i'd go to church and sit down. a friend of mine once told me that when you're faced with a problem, big or small, try to spend a small amount of your time in a church or chapel per day. you don't have to pretend to pray. just sit down and be quiet. for five minutes. "what's five minutes a day?" he says. he promised that in due time, no matter how dire your problem was, and even though it would never go away, you'd feel a lot better about it. i'm on my way to that feeling.
surreal conversationi went to school early the other day. thirsty, i wento the cafeteria to buy myself some iced tea and i had a strange but enlightening conversation with the iced tea lady. it's a shame that i can't even remember her face anymore.
J: isa pong iced tea, small lang.
Lady: [prepares the iced tea] Bakit ang konti ng mga tao ngayon?
J: ah, eh finals week po kasi eh. konti po talaga siguro tao pag ganito.
Lady: oo nga noh, finals week pala. alam mo, pag konti tao, mas okay, mas maayos. naririnig ko sarili ko. ang iingay ng iba sa inyo eh! [hands me the iced tea]
J: oo nga po eh! [forced laugh]
Lady: sana ganito na lang lagi noh? yan problema ngayon, kahit saan. masyadong maiingay mga tao! wala namang sinasabi!
J: [laughs and pays] sige po. thank you.
Lady: [laughs]
she had something there, i guess. i've been guilty of this many times. what's the point of speaking if you're not going to say anything? people talk too much. often, they don't want the opinion of the other person, they're just waiting for their own turn to speak. and sometimes, they just wanna say, "this is what i think! this is me! cool, eh?"
hence, the birth of the blogs.
ah, vanity. my favorite sin- The Devil, from Devil's Advocate
the adventure ended at 4:47 PM
