Thursday, June 16, 2005
funk day firstyeah. it all feels so surreal. today i got my official Ateneo de Manila University - John Gokungwei School of Management I.D. my I.D. number is 050009 [and in the picture, my blockmates said i look like Mr.Clean]. and that finally seals it all. i never imagined actually having an ateneo id, even after the years of preparation/deliberation for ateneo college life.
it's always so strange to do something for the first time. it's always a bizzare yet exhilarating experience to be new at something, to venture into the unknown, to eat foreign food. see, there are two types of fear. one can either be
scared-good or
good-scared. scared-good is when you chicken out right before watching The Ring because a stupid friend told you that you wouldn't be able to sleep nor watch TV for a while. it's when you run for dear life when a huge bear suddenly jumps out of an alley while you're walking home in Binondo [yes, a bear]. it's fear without thought, it's the impulse, it's the reason why man doubts then destroys everything that he does not understand: he is scared-good. now, being good-scared is one of the most fulfilling feelings of all. it's that final two seconds of doubt before jumping out of a plane, sky-diving. it's that big, deep, and useless worry what to say to that hot girl who just asked you for the time. it's staying up all night for an exam you know you're going to fail. it's hours and hours in the waiting room waiting for the defnitely positive surgery results of someone dear. it's getting a girlfriend. it's a La Salle vs. Ateneo finals game.
hell,
it's the first week of college.
yes, i am good-scared.. to the bone.
but frightened as i am, i believe in my ability to surpass anything. i believe that the universe unfolds as it should. i think about it. i feel it. and most especially, i do something about it. thus, i can never, ever be scared-good. nope. not in college.
a blessing in a halloween costume with the worksone very perfect example of the unfolding universe is the stuff that's happening in my life right now. something bad had to happen to make way for something which i can only hope is something good... and something real. i feel it. and yes, i'm doing something about it. hehehe. i only hope that i'll be strong enough to encounter any difficulties [ahem] i might face in relation to all this. let's just hope. time will tell.
the adventure ended at 8:21 PM
