Thursday, May 12, 2005
truths here's how it goes. write 10 things about 10 people. it can be anything, a description, a secret, a confession or an address. you cannot, under any circumstances, say to whom the messages are addressed to.
1) you don't know what you had. you wasted something i only dreamt about. you had something i could never have and you let it slip away. i'm sad... for you.
2) i miss you dearly. you're the only person who could see things the way i do. i learned a lot from you and it's a shame you aren't here anymore. i could really use your help and companionship.
3) our friendship has gone a long way. but you have to stop pretending. you have to be real. but you know, we have that thing in common. we create our own world and shield ourselves from reality. you know, if it weren't for that, i'd consider you my very bestfriend cuz we have so much in common and so many things to talk about. you're aces, bro.
4) i hope you, for once, take an interest to who i am. you know nearly nothing about me even though you're supposed to be the one who knows everything about me. i'm supposed to be free to approach you and talk to you about anything, but you're one person i feel shaky talking to. but nonetheless, my feelings for you won't change. you're still who you are.
5) it's no wonder why you're one of my bestfriends. we see life and the way we live it the same way. we're never satisfied. we feel bad cuz we can never truly express ourselves to people. we're never given the opportunity. and when that rare opporunity does come, we always think of an excuse to feel bad about ourselves. hahaha.
6) i'm sorry for everything. i've never met anyone closer to everything i've ever wanted and needed. that's the truth. no more lies. cuz i guess i haven't been entirely honest with myself. i hope you know that you're not the same as that other person. you really aren't. and... i wasn't ready. if i were, i swear, i wouldn't have been the way i was.
7) it's a real shame that i wasted my time and effort with you. and it's really sad that you had to lie to me about everything. but what i've learned from you is that i shouldn't look so hard for something that has been in front of me all along. though i learned it the hard way, thank you for the lesson.
8) thanks for all your advice. you're the big brother i never had. and i know i'm the young 'you' that you miss so much. hahaha. i'm always here for you, bro. even though you sometimes push too much to be 'cool'. hahahaha.
9) i've always tried to save the world for you. always. i pushed mountains and swam seas. all for you. i hope you know that you save me too. you're the reason i want to become a better person. though i know there are some things you'll never know about me, i hope you know i'll always be here for you no matter what way you see me. i just hope that one day, you do see me.
10) i want to thank you for everything you've ever taught me. most of them, indirectly. you've been a very big part of my life. though most times, i don't like you at all [for your pride, self-pity, prejudice, and stubbornness], i want you to know that you're very important to me and that i care for you a lot. i just hope you don't continue to look at me the same way you see me. i just wanna say, 'know before you judge.' thanks again.
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grabe! ang hirap pala nito! some of the people i've written about are really obvious to figure out. hahaha.
the adventure ended at 10:49 PM
