Wednesday, March 30, 2005
sweating the airconditioning outwith 2 months of undeniable freedom and immortality, a 17-year old can think of a million things to do. yeah, but thinking of a million things to do and actually doing a million things are two totally different things.
with the dawn of this year's summer, a part of me can't wait until its sunset, the evening, the new day ahead, AKA... college. hehe. i've set my mind on AdMU already [no more 2nd thoughts] and i'm confirming my slot next week. but fuck, come on, it's my last summer before the "bagong yugto sa aking buhay" arrives and i promised myself i was gonna squeeze as much fun and enjoyment out of it as possible.
summer actually [technically {for me anyway}] started on monday. after the holy week. because it's the time when i can actually do whatever i want without any hold-ups. as long as i have permission [i AM still a minor], money... nah, i don't need money.. and the will, there are a myriad of possibilities. hehehe.
travel. one of the most probable activities this summer. due to the overly eccentric and galit-sa-pera [tsk tsk, bad trait. bad trait.] family i am part of, we, the children especially, are encouraged to "broaden our horizons" and travel. now, i have nothing against traveling, but i just think it's inconvenient and that there are many other things to do. besides, traveling with your family has its drawbacks. hehehe. no offense. anyway, the plans of travel this summer? my parents are going to the scandinavian countries while my two elder sisters are going to spain and morocco while doyti and i are going [ahem] "backpacking" in the states/australian outback. i hate the fact that we're spending so much on very unnecessary things. but heck, the opportunity presents itself, so take it. right? i guess. hmmm, "backpacking" might be fun, but in the states? really? in the states? is that possible? gonna go travel around in a Greyhound? i dunno about that. but then, still, it'll be fun with just my sister. hehe. no parental guidance! hahaha.
but then, i can easily blow this off cuz the plans aren't really all that concrete yet and i'm still thinking about it. hmmm.
repertory. i've been joining repertory's summer workshop for the past two summers. should i join again? hmmm. it's possible. but i dunno, i just feel like i wanna do something different. no offense again. but i can't help it, the stage, performing, the lights, the drama, they're all a part of me and that part is screaming out to me and telling me, "hey asshole! get up from your lazy ass and join repertory! your inner thespian-self-dude is dying in here! you asshole!" hmm. very persuasive sub-consciousness. i dunno. we'll see.
jamming. hey greg! this one's for you. yeah, a frustration and fallen dream of mine is to make music. maybe get in a band. express. you know? it's every angsty teenager's dream mind you, i am not much of an angsty teenager [joel: or ARE you?]. but philippines is like jamaica, mahn! haha. everyone can sing. everyone can dance. everyone can perform. even if all you've got is a pretty face, all you have to do is move your lips [and despite the poor lip to sound coordination {AKA dubbing}], you sing beautifully and everyone will love you. whatever happened to making music for the sake of making music? and now, i guess, the closest person to me who's as intense as i am about this is greg [i think]. but come on, we need more intense dudes to fill the void up! aaaaand, i gotta learn an instrument. by heart and hand, i have to learn if i wanna push through with this. no more "kapa-kapa" crapness and random ear-destroying instrument playing. and i gotta imrpove my singing voice. cuz honestly, in my opinion, it's still nothing but pure crap-o-mania. and if i wanna sing, i gotta be good. and the making/writing music part? hahaha. that's the easy part! angsty teenagers make the best music [yeah, yeah joel]. hahahaha! this one's tough. but it's something i really really want to do.
basketball. there's a nike basketball tournament coming up. i want to join. wala lang. yet another frustration and [further 100x] fallen dream of mine is to play basketball well. yeah. i love the game. i love the sport. and i really want to play. but opporunities come like pins in haystacks wtih me as a blind man, feeling around the stack, getting pricked, lost and tired. other people get to the pins first. bah. oh well.
dance. yeah, i do wanna dance. maybe a little more hip-hop and a little less jazz this time. wala lang, i just like it when the music gets me movin', and when i get movin', i wanna know how to move. i wanna get down. ya dig? hahaha. [horrible] not too intense about this one, but it's still there. greg's with me again on this one? what say you, greg?
gym. this one i'm doing already. the boy who once the "patpat" and resident thinman is now 167lbs. fatness. i wanna lose 20lbs by june. and of course, i wanna tone up and get some definition. so i'm hitting the gym everyday. and on weekends, i'll head up to tagaytay highlands by my lonesome and have some recreation [swimming, basketball, gym, boxing, jogging, etc]
hamstering. here's the one i really should be doing a lot less but i still end up doing the most. self-explanatory. kain-tulog lifestyle.
yup, there you go. my dream summer. my aspirations and goals. and i'm hopinh i could achieve at least half of it. hehehe. wish me luck. and i hope everyone has a, uhh, less complicated summer than i do.
the adventure ended at 12:54 PM
