.: conversations :.

conversations with people lead to emo-ness. i was talking with raffy the other day. it seems he was getting bored of his relationship. why? [shit, i hope his gf doesn't read this. hehe. oh hell, even raffy doesn't] "everything's the same. everyday's the same. people keep saying that every day is different, that there's something new to look forward to everyday. the truth is [at least in dating], there isn't. life isn't like a romantic comedy flick where unlikely situations that turn into serendipity happen. 'sure, it is,' people would say. yeah, but not in the fashion that the fantastic world of movies has tattooed in our heads. you go out. you watch a movie. you eat. you chill. you talk and talk. you spend time at each other's place. you occasionally try something new [she cooks for you. you cook for her. you go to the beach. you go sky-diving. you make out] but the fact that you occasionally do something new makes it a cycle as well. and no matter what you do, no matter who you're gonna be with, it's always gonna be the same thing. those life-altering, life-threatening, opposites-attracting, plane-missing, job/studies-neglecting situations don't happen as often as you want them to." ... as raffy would say. yeah, i boosted the word power a bit, but generally, this is what he said. ooh, and he ended with saying, "..kaya ikaw, mambabae ka na muna! hassle ang gf, tsong!" bah. whatever dude! hahaha. pero know what, he's kinda right [about the first part]. we're not as free as we would be in movies and on tv. no matter how much we want to be, this is something we gotta accept. most people won't realize it and won't even mind it, but i guess raffy has a point if you really think about it. BI talaga yun. pinapaisip pa ako eh! haha.

.: two more months :.

i passed DLSU. *disgruntled yay* and tomorrow, i find out about ateneo. my future is about to be paved. i've my mind set on ateneo already, but in case i fail, it'll automatically be DLSU. so i guess tomorrow's a big day.

it's actually been bugging me lately. i'm about to graduate. and i keep thinking, 'did i spend my highschool right? did i squeeze my time in it to the last drop?' the answer is a 'no'. but it's okay, can anyone say yes to these questions? but still, it's something that's never gonna happen again. and besides, LSGH has been my 2nd home for more than 12 years. that's 3/4 of my life. now, it's time to let go. i guess monje's song really does mean something. [hi joel. hehe]

.: inspiration :.

i've been writing again. yes. don't worry, this blog will not be doomed to be a literary one. i've been writing a lot about all th emo-ness that's been happening and stuff. it feels kinda good to heave it out. but then, i get tamad to use a pen and a paper so i end up just using notepad na lang. hehehehe. there's a certain sense of pride and satisfaction that enters you knowing that you wrote something good. though no one will ever agree with you, it's okay. unlike some people i know, i now write for me. and no one else.

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well, since we're all tumbling about to use this one computer in the office for our internet needs, i have to cut it short. [dami ko pa namang emo stuff na sasabihin] oh well. till next time.